this morning, I dream of you again.....
when I woke up... all is silent.
keep dreaming of you again recently... from very long ago..






Anyway I already received my suju photobook!!!!
last wk received le!!~~ but always nv post.. reali v lazy.. lol!!


will post it tmr !! ^^
got buy gazette mag also.. alot of stuff la.. must take photo~~
haha!!!
will be back tmr!! ^^

lee seung gi ftw!!! lol~~

yst I watch the 2008 KBS enetertainment award and my seung gi won the most popularity award!!! ^__^
of cos he must win.. everybody love him!!!! XD

and while watching, gt 1 part when he won then the camera show to his fan side there... OMFG!!! I SAW A POSTER, HE VERY GOOD-LOOKING!!!!! REALLY VERY SHUAI!!! XD

SO I DECIDE TO FIND IT!!!! AND I FINALLY FOUND IT!!

is de same look but diff pose... the award one he hand was folding but the pic i got is not folding but nvm.. still thanks to the girl who share with me. :)

will still continue to find it.. :)



well, anyway I'm now super addicted to SS501 - UR MAN!!!

damn.. is so addictive la.. I kept hearing & hearing & hearing~~~~~~~~~ I'm ur man.. I'm ur man kudaeya~~~

NICE LEH!!!~~~~~~

somemore yeongsaeng super sexy leh~~~~~~~~~
woooooooo!!!!~~~~~~



HERE'S THE VIDEO!! LIVE PERF!!! ^__^






dunno where he learn from one.. start to smirk, dance also so sexy... omg~~ kyujong too!!!! XD

but de only thing is he keep using his index & middle finger to hit his head.. bit funny.. lol~~

last but nt least, our maknae.. forver so cute!!! XD

aja aja hwating!!! XD



btw my kyukyu house is getting nicer by the day~~ lol!!
I wan make even more nicer~~ but dunno y like look more & more messier.. aigo~~

but thanks to other ppl & candy for giving all the stuff.... XD

kam sia ah~~~~

xmas eve..... omg.... is a very crazy eve...
I wanna erase it frm my memory.
damn it.... maybe you all don't blame me at all but I feel otherwise.
I feel very bad... but it wasn't my fault! one of u shld have told me at least???
i can't read people mind you know... out of sudden, I feel that I'm nt with them.


2day was a very 'stranger' day..
I feel like a stranger, and I don't expect to feel welcome too.. is like so..
like if you welcome me den I'm happy but if you don't den is ok, forget about it.


I really feel like leaving on the spot just now, i not trying to throw my bloody tantrum or what but is just that... if you were in my shoe, you were do the same thing too. out of sudden. you don't feel welcome.


you try to fake a smile which is so hard and I almost........... but I take it back.
I try not too.. I'm a strong girl.

xmas eve.. what kind of xmas eve?? just wanna forget about it.
I feel like forgetting everyone.... I'm sorry.



MIA-ing...
I'll only contact you or reply you if is impt. (that gt nothing to do with personal life)
let me find back my happiness back and I'll be back.
I ned to put down everything for now, too tired alrdy.


I'm sorry if I make evryone xmas eve feel bad & moody. sorry.
bye.

I'm back.

went to PBO just nw... :)
If candy nv invite me, I think I won't go cos is bit boring.. maybe bocs my fave band is nt performing~~ lol~~
wat is e'the'real??? eh.. paisae.. dunno hw 2 spell.. dun care also.
I dun like them... haiz~~~~ they will nv win my xin mu zhong idol band!! ^__^
dunno y when they perform, so many girl was screaming for them.. ok, one man meat is another man poison. haha!!! but I still wld comment bit.. lol~
mmmm... he look like a failure ruki.. lol!!
his hair-style 2day.. omg! I mean I dunno if he's following ruki but when the moment I saw his hair-style, I thought of ruki in RCE Concert!
IS LIKE WTF!! IS EXACTLY THE SAME EXCEPT FOR THE HAIR COLOR!!! -_-'
I totally xian diao.. den his scarf & outer thin jacket.. really remind me of RCE encore... omg~~ if he's realy gonna copy ruki style.. NO!!
I'LL BOYCOTT!! LOL~~~
but pls la.. dun. I think kunio shld just maintain his own style.
I admit I really shock on his height, his height is 1.90!!! omfg!!
SO TALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
hahahahahahahhaahhahahaha~~ tall like siaow~~ but I dun like...
den melon say he very good-looking, good-looking meh????

*thinking*

nt for me though... lmao!

tell u the truth, I'm a Lucify fan.

shldn't be paisae over it & must be proud!! lol!!! XD
ya, serious!! I support lucify ever since they perform 'Hei Se You Mo'
but I don't really go & chase but I 4got what song, then I start to support them all the way until now.. lol~~
I still support them.. ^^

even they look bit uncle-ish.. haha!!! but funny la~ lol!!
hehehehehhehehee......

anyway have fun 2day, nt bcos of the event.
but bocs of this 2 person: shinn & kesh!!
OMG!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, KESH!! ARGH!!!
U STICK TOO SHINN TOO MUCH LE!! U LEARN FRM HIM!!!!
BWAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! STOP MAKING ME LAUGH!!

serious, I was super shock when he imitate my laughter... 0.0
he nv imitate b4.. de 2day he imitate, I was like tio shock lo... lol!!
den melon kept laughing!! XD
I kept laughig 2day... lol~
gt my gazette book too!! woah!! RUKI!!! XD <333!!!

and pls... KESH-KIA, stop acting cute~~~ omg~~~~~
want candy floss, just get la... walao.... CAN SHY~~~~ haha!!!!
so funny~~ really v funny.. u shld watch his reaction, is so xiao didi la.. lol1!

OMG! I SOUND LIKE A JIEJIE OUT OF SUDDEN!! LOL~~~
and I kept thinking of yaoi stuff between shinn, kesh & rex. WTF AM I THINKING??!!!!!

die liao... too hard-core on yaoi le.. gotta refrain!!! XD
I CAN DO IT!!! XD



anyway, I wanna thanks kesh, shinn, melon & pearl! ^_^
I feel very happy 2day!

I was feeling super emo & pek-check over the past few day.. and finally 2day I can smile & laugh.. like all mine emo wasn't exist at all~~! ^^
really thanks.

but of cos, biggest thanks: candy.
if she nv invite, mayb I still feeling super miserable & emo..
dydy!! *hug*
but bocs is also a very simple thing, I dun wish to make my family worried. ^^

I'm fine! ^__^

I'll make 2day a very good memory. :)
A memory I shouldn't forget. ^_^

out of sudden, I think back all the past..
when the 1st tym I met fruits.. I didn't noe I wld make fren w/ them..

is like super irony!!! really... so weird & funny..
I still rmb when the very 1st tym I saw them... the very 1st tym which I nv even talk to them.. but just rmb them. nt in rmb but alrdy store in the brain.
means if out of sudden, I saw them on the street, I wld like 'orh! isn't that the perosn I saw at that shop?'

something like dis.. ^^
too much flashback out of sudden.. of all fruits, hmm...
the closet one to me now, last tym didn't really talk to me much.
and yet, they r the closest. lol~~
which the closest one to me, always talk & go out nw seem to nv contact le.
once awhile.. lol~!! but ok la~~

I won't say I know them verywell or like the best fren of them.. but just a fren. :)

candy, shinn, kesh, yumi, melon, verse, chiaki, kaoru, neo, monkeu...
I'm nt really very close with michi & longan & aki. :)
out of sudden, I think of something..... which make me feel omg!!!
so stupid & irony la!! lmao~~~~ ^_^

anyway hope I'll be happy forever! ^_^

whatever I feeling the past few day, I just take it as 'my unlucky time & day, nt fated with me though' :)
once, again. thanks. ^__^

i change my song to "People Error"
why? cause everybody make error.
You

Me

He

She

everybody




And until the day they die, they still make error.

and nw I realise I made an error and you did. (In my dream)
U r lucky.

dun worry, u didn't make an error.
No matter what you say or did, you were never wrong or make an error.

it would be me.

even if I'm right, is still an error


It shouldn't begin like this
all wrong. everything land on the wrong time.

I tried 2 forget.. but is not my error.
and yet, it make me feel & look like one.


I'm setting a goal to forget, I hope I'll.
but is just trying to hard.

I really has enough.

Im really very tired of *********

I noe I shld't make myself sound so pathetic.. sorry.
But I just write what I like & feel.
u dun wan read, den stfo. get it?
too cling is tired.

so I begin..... hope it will work.
I wld forget..... yes, i will.
I believed.
one day, maybe not now.

maybe 1 yr later, 5 yrs later, 10 yrs... it will vanish one day.
and I won't feel the sadness anymore, I feel happy and free.

anyway, I feel thanksful actually.
thanks to you, I realise actually life is full or ironice & error stuff.
thanks.

I wld nv make dis kind of error again. (maybe..................)

ただいま～～～
今日俺の気持ちょっと分が良くない。。すみませんでした。
流鬼ーくんを言うことができる。。だて俺の名前ははるきです。
ハ流鬼。春樹？　春木？はるき？ハルキ？
いいえ。。ハ流鬼です！　＾＾
よろしくおねがいします～～


ところで前方今日から俺が流鬼のコスプレイが捧げなさい 。
アニメのコスプレイもやらない～～～　だいきらいです。。。
どうしてお前ら絶対うそうですか？
なんかうんざりすること。。。本当～！！！！
お前らもちろんなにもしらない。。。でも俺はしてるよ！！！！！！
ひどい～～～　お前ら本当に大嫌い！～～
もう。。　それについて忘れなさい。


私の時間を無駄にしなさいない価値。。。。。




おお！！！
花ー様のブロクに更新がある！！＾＾
すげい嬉しい！！
～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
今年も残すところあと半月ですね
早いー
今日は休みなので大掃除を兼ねて部屋を片付けてました
すっごいキレイにっなて満足です



画像のとこちょっと前に更新しました。
とりあえずっていうかんじなのでまだ増える……かもしれないです(笑)




今漫画喫茶で拍手返させて頂いています。
目がしょぼしょぼ。
このペースで年内に終わるのか謎です(笑)
いつもどうも有難うございます
すごい励まされてます
～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
ねね。。見て！！！
や～～～～～～花ー様！！！！　＾＿＿＿＾

じゃ～～いま俺はSOYの時流鬼ー様がコスプレイに望むです！！＾＾
斑駁の時？Hmmmmm。。。。　しらいないな～～
でも最もおそらく時間のそれを作ることができれば斑駁の時やてます！！

オオオオオオ～～～～～～俺のスポージュニヤの写真本明日が送られる！！！

希望！！！！
今俺は現在忙しく俺のガゼットの戒ーチャンを探しつける

むずかし～～～　シンアポル中に戒ーさんが類似したいないです！！！！！！！ヤべ～

明日俺の休みの日！！！！　やった！！！！　よかたですね～～～～

俺は本当につかれたです～～～本当～～
すべてつかれた～～～　完全につかれた～～
とにかく私がたいと思う何を言いある。
明日が猫ーチャンみてるよ！！！
SPCAが行く！！！＾＿＿＿＿＾
私は写真の多くを取る！！！
まってます～～～～～～～

im back!! ^^
yeah! yeah!! yeah!!!
got alot of stuff to update....... actually nt really la.. lol~
my suju photobook!!!
wahahaha~~~ den my cosplay stuff~~ ^^
omg... ^^

here's my suju photobook!!! XD
IN KL ONE LEH!!! XD






den my hana-sama also gt update le!! ^^
weee~~~~~~


I'm currently concentrating on my ruki cosplay~~ ^^

my wishlist ruki cosplay all written on the right box!~` ^^
wanna noe what I'm doing, look there!! ^^

I know you don't mind.
but...... still feel very guilty.....
I try not to bother but still very sad cause I bluff u....
I hate to bluff people.. serious.
thats y I feel so sad & guilty now..... maybe I shld just told you the truth ealry then I won't feel so xian...... haiz~~~
sorry again.
Since you ask me not to do le, then I don't do already.

EOY~~~
bit bored compare to last year... maybe bcos I only went there 4 2 hr den go to wrk le.. hurhur~~
anyway also but fun cos with hichy.. lol!!
while eating BK, we talk alot of stuff and I REALISE DAT WE HAVE ALOT OF THING IN COMMMON!! OMG!!!!!! *o*
amazing!!!!

while walking around the place, didn't went it to the PAID area.. lol
saw JJP, Shiroro, Rayray frm sgcafe~~ haha~~


I dress up as ruki but well, if ppl ask me if I'm cosplaying I'll definetly tell them 'NO!'
i just dress up.. lol


now I already start rushing on my cosplay for matsuri/Stfet..
is must be a success!!! XD

I also finally gt my SUJU IN KL PHOTOBOOK!!!
OMFG~!!!! CAN U BELIEVED IT?!
Will take a pic of it asap.. :)
heheheheheheheheehehehehe~~~~~
and also from now onward, I decide ro dedicated myself solely to Ruki cosplay.
Means I'll only do Ruki cosplay from no onward. :)
next yr my anime cosplay will be the last. ^^
Hope is also a success since is the last one I'm doing. ^^


btw I just read up soemthing and I realise the true story behind gazette song 'Taion'~~~
I always believed there's something about this Taion.. but didn't noe that is based on a true story and is a very cruel, harsh sad story......
just like chizuru...
but even more worst...... when you read the story about this which you can simply find at en.wikipedia.
den you read taion lyric.. u will realise the pain of it...
ruki dedicated this song to her.... but why?
do you know that this case happen when ruki was only 6yr old?
and now his 25, he start to create this song to dedicated to her..
I can't describe how I feeling right now...
I believed that 4 guy must be livinh like hell right?
doing all those beast behavior stuff & w/o feeling remorseful.. go & die~~~
GAZETTE SHLD JUST DEDICATED 'GO TO HELL' TO THEM.
omg... sorry~~ agitated alrdy... T_T
ruki~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I find that... what we always see ont tv the 'Ruki' is totally vice-verse frm private 'ruki'
really... I'm not saying like I know him.

but the way you see he wrote his lyric.. you can feel.

he.... well, I dunno~~~


and.....
I feel so guilty & sad 2day........
I'm so sorry
I know I promise u but pls give me more time..
I'll really do... trust me!!!!!!!
by end of this mth.. really,
sorry keep on dragging~~~~
really very sorry~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
sorry~~~~~~
dun angry ah..........

俺が今年EOY流鬼ー様とコスプレイやりたいです！！
俺はコスプレイが成功であることを望む。。。おねがい～～～～～

これらの数日私は病気である。。本当にやべですね

くるしいです。。

そう！！　1つのより事！俺のブロクもうすぐにかわりました！！

それに先に見なさい！！

昨晩俺はガゼットクッキーを焼く！！！！！！超かわいい！！！！！見てください！！





かわいいでしょ？　はは。。。。　流鬼！　それ受け取られる！！！！

父は一緒に焼クキする。。すげい綺麗！！！　＾＾

わあああああああ～～～～～～～　＾＿＿＿＾
拍手！！！！！！　はは～～～

나는 돌아온다!!!! XD
당신은 모두 저를 놓쳤는가? haha~~~
추와!!! ^_^
나는 한국어에 오늘 쓰기 같이 왜 나가 지금 쓰고 있는지 이다 그래야 느낀다..
그런데, 나는 야후! 베발를-물고기 을 사용한다 , 번역하십시오 정확한 그것은 이렇게 이지 않는다. 아라소??????
와~~~~~~~~~~~~~
오늘모두1반2일본다.. ㅇ!!!!!!!!
이승기노무노무귀여와!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 아주 똑똑한 너무!!!!!!!
갸~~~~~~~ *___* 저를 실신하고!!~~~

그리고 또한 나는 하루종일을 실소하는 것을 계속한다!!!!!!
하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하!!!!!
그리고 테리사-씨는 저에게 생과자를 준다모고다.....


마싰엉요!!!!! XD
나는 이미 잘 필요가 있다.... 나는 다시 쓸 것이다. ^^
잘 자!! ^_____________________________^

TOP IS SO GOOD-LOOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
REALLY!!!
I SAW THEM PERFORM 'SUNSET GLOW' ON MUSI BANK AND BEFORE THAT THEY HAVE AN INTERVIEW WITH BIGBANG, AND TOP IS LIKE SO DAMN BLOODY GOOD-LOOKING!!!!!!
WITH ALL HIS EYE-LINER & THE STUD MASK!! WOW!!!!!!!!!!! XD

nice~~ ^^
show u sum~~
manage to find it within 3min after saw the perf on music bank>. ^_^
I'm kinda pround of myself when come to find pic, mp3 & vid.. lol!!







ANYWAY CONGRAT!!
THEY WON FOR NO.1 CONTENDER!!!!
CHUKA EYO!!!

THE BEST OF ALL BEST!!
K.R.Y ALBUM!!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
den my fave.. toe sock!! XD
den I ownself pamper myself.. SUPER JUNIOR NII POSTER!!! XD


still gt somemore to come~~
wakakakakakakakakakakkakakkaa ^o^

den I finally change my look~~~ yeshie!! XD
DO I LOOK? YES, I DO!!!
I FEEL PRETTY CONFIDENT AND I LOVE MY LOOK!!!!! OMG!!!!

And..... ome more thing is..
Thanks, you made my day even happier. :)
Really, you made me feel even happy & better. ^_^
This is what I really hope for. ^^

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!! XD
Happy 17th birthday to me~~ lol!!!
I'm old le.. lol~~~~~
anyway got a very super happy presnt frm my ban-chan!! XD
WEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AND I ALSO GT MYSELF PRESNT FOR MYSELF.. PAMPER MYSELF~~ LOL
I BROUGHT SUJU NII Qualified Poster, SUJU KL PHOTOBOOK, SUJU IN TOKYO PHOTOBOOK, SUJU SUPER SHOW CD, SUPER SHOW FOLDER!!!! XD
WAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!!!

will post up pioc asap!! yea~~~~~~~
새잏추가함니다!!!!!!!
誕序日おめでと！！！！！！！！！！！
生日快乐！！！！！！！！

1 AND A HALF MORE HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMFG!!!!! XD
I'M SO DAMN BLOODY EXCITED!!~~~~ ^_____________^

TO THOSE WHO EASILY GAVE UP LIFE, THINK THAT YOU'RE USELESS JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T COMPLETE A SINGLE THING, YOU ALL SHOULD SEE THIS!!!!!
This link was gaven by dydy~~ of cos the word I post is not meant for her but to the whole world!!!





DON'T GIVE UP LIFE!!!
LIFE IS VERY PRECIOUS!!!
ALWAYS MUST THINK FOR OTHERS, NOT JUST YOURSELF!
WHEN YOU THINK YOU'RE THE WORST, THERE'S ALWAYS PEOPLE MORE WORST THEN YOU.
WHEN YOU THINK YOU'RE THE BEST, THERE'S ALWAYS PEOPLE MORE BETTER THEN YOU.
DON'T JUST GAVE UP LIFE LIKE NOTHING~~ YOUR PARENT HOLD YOU FOR 9MTH, IMAGINE IF YOU JUST GAVE UP YOUR LIFE, DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD WILL THEY BE. :)


So that's why till now, I always lean how to cherish life.
Every second, every minute. ^_^
Make use to the fullest, even those there's something you wanted to do but can't do, you can always try other way.. fulfillinf it in other way,
I believd you all know what & how if you search your heart. :)
Always be yourself, believed in yourself & love yourself.
You'll automatically feel contented with what you have. ^_^
trust me. ^^

ただいま！！！　イイえ！！！！
私はよいニュースを有する！！！
花ー様のブログを既に更新する！！！！
これは花ー様が書いたものである。。。。　こちらです～～

いつの間にやら12月ですね。
今日は天気が良くて温かいです。



心配してくださった方、なんだかすみません。
体調崩したりはしていないです。
いたって健康！です！
ちょっとごちゃごちゃあって沈んでたけど、なんか急にアホくさくなったので浮上しました(笑)




今日は秋葉原！
ギズモがメイド喫茶行ってみたいって言うからつきてきました。
今からオムライスに絵書いてもらいます(笑)


可愛いですね！！！！！！＞。＜
花ー様！！
花ー様はちょうど色を茶色にするために花ー様の毛を染める、あまりかこいいじゃないだな。。。
流鬼ー様ない良く似た。。ちょおとです。。。　すみません！！！　＞。＜
まま。。でも花ー様は今でも俺のアイドルです～～
かんばって！！！！　ずっと常に支えなさい！！！！！　＾＾

1つのより多くの事！！！
先は俺はTVのプログラムを、"1반2일" りスンギ－さん日本語を話してもいい見る！！
すごいい！！！！　本当にびくりした！！！！！！！！！　＊＿＿＊
＊拍手＊

とにかく2行くより多くの日～～～～～　興奮する！！！！！！！

よし～～～～
今晩俺のブロク全部日本語が書いてす。＾＾
ま。。。ちょうとむずかしだな。。。　でも、かんばれです。
だから俺は今日超嬉しい！！！！
もっと4日。。俺の誕序日来て！！！！！！
よっかた。。。。。。。。＾＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＾
そうそう。。。俺の髪変が変わり決めます。
矢部・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・俺の日本語本当に下手　Ｔ＿＿＿Ｔ
自分ぜんぜんしらない何が書いてます。　本当にやべ。。。。。
でも、今日の理由どうして俺は用日本語書いて。。　これだなーーーー＞







俺の様です！！！！ＸＤ
愛してる！！！！！！
やっぱりお前らは本当に流鬼様同じですね。　すげえ～～～













～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
ね。。。お前ら～～～
知てる？
絶対何も知らねんでしょ。。。
本当に悲しい。。。。
やっぱり。。。　もういよ。。。　
今の私、実は本当に楽しみです。：）
でも、あの日々が本当にありがとうです。
すげうれしい。　ありがとう。。。。。。。。。。。。

wahahahahha!!
is reaching!!!!! XD
so excited~~
well, excited in a way..
cos I've present frm my ban-chan & my cafe!! :)
but bit bored is bcos I gt a very strong feeling.. they'll forget.
yup, most of them or maybe all of them. but is ok.
haha~~

anyway I alrdy updated my bday wishlist!!! wee~~~
I WANT A HAIR VOUCHER BEFORE MY BDAY SO DAT I CAN DO MY HAIR!!!
A BIG SUN-GLASS JUST LIKE MY DEAR RUKI~~~~
Long black cardigan frm cotton-on.. always wanted to buy but nv.. hurhur
black boots! no heel.. just like ruki~~
Black t-shirt!
a pair of black jeans~~
those hair.. u noe gentleman/magician/tuxedo dat kind of hat!! yes!!
a very long black scarf!!

basically I want to make-over myself!! just like ruki!!
he's my dream make-over!! :)
I <3 suju but won't want to make-over like them.. hehehehehe~~
but If I wld to choose, I think I'll choose ryeowook
, kyuhyun
, donghae
& lee teuk

.
I like their dressing!! eunhyuk also!! :)

this morning, I dream of you again.....
when I woke up... all is silent.
keep dreaming of you again recently... from very long ago..






Anyway I already received my suju photobook!!!!
last wk received le!!~~ but always nv post.. reali v lazy.. lol!!


will post it tmr !! ^^
got buy gazette mag also.. alot of stuff la.. must take photo~~
haha!!!
will be back tmr!! ^^

lee seung gi ftw!!! lol~~

yst I watch the 2008 KBS enetertainment award and my seung gi won the most popularity award!!! ^__^
of cos he must win.. everybody love him!!!! XD

and while watching, gt 1 part when he won then the camera show to his fan side there... OMFG!!! I SAW A POSTER, HE VERY GOOD-LOOKING!!!!! REALLY VERY SHUAI!!! XD

SO I DECIDE TO FIND IT!!!! AND I FINALLY FOUND IT!!

is de same look but diff pose... the award one he hand was folding but the pic i got is not folding but nvm.. still thanks to the girl who share with me. :)

will still continue to find it.. :)



well, anyway I'm now super addicted to SS501 - UR MAN!!!

damn.. is so addictive la.. I kept hearing & hearing & hearing~~~~~~~~~ I'm ur man.. I'm ur man kudaeya~~~

NICE LEH!!!~~~~~~

somemore yeongsaeng super sexy leh~~~~~~~~~
woooooooo!!!!~~~~~~



HERE'S THE VIDEO!! LIVE PERF!!! ^__^






dunno where he learn from one.. start to smirk, dance also so sexy... omg~~ kyujong too!!!! XD

but de only thing is he keep using his index & middle finger to hit his head.. bit funny.. lol~~

last but nt least, our maknae.. forver so cute!!! XD

aja aja hwating!!! XD



btw my kyukyu house is getting nicer by the day~~ lol!!
I wan make even more nicer~~ but dunno y like look more & more messier.. aigo~~

but thanks to other ppl & candy for giving all the stuff.... XD

kam sia ah~~~~

xmas eve..... omg.... is a very crazy eve...
I wanna erase it frm my memory.
damn it.... maybe you all don't blame me at all but I feel otherwise.
I feel very bad... but it wasn't my fault! one of u shld have told me at least???
i can't read people mind you know... out of sudden, I feel that I'm nt with them.


2day was a very 'stranger' day..
I feel like a stranger, and I don't expect to feel welcome too.. is like so..
like if you welcome me den I'm happy but if you don't den is ok, forget about it.


I really feel like leaving on the spot just now, i not trying to throw my bloody tantrum or what but is just that... if you were in my shoe, you were do the same thing too. out of sudden. you don't feel welcome.


you try to fake a smile which is so hard and I almost........... but I take it back.
I try not too.. I'm a strong girl.

xmas eve.. what kind of xmas eve?? just wanna forget about it.
I feel like forgetting everyone.... I'm sorry.



MIA-ing...
I'll only contact you or reply you if is impt. (that gt nothing to do with personal life)
let me find back my happiness back and I'll be back.
I ned to put down everything for now, too tired alrdy.


I'm sorry if I make evryone xmas eve feel bad & moody. sorry.
bye.

I'm back.

went to PBO just nw... :)
If candy nv invite me, I think I won't go cos is bit boring.. maybe bocs my fave band is nt performing~~ lol~~
wat is e'the'real??? eh.. paisae.. dunno hw 2 spell.. dun care also.
I dun like them... haiz~~~~ they will nv win my xin mu zhong idol band!! ^__^
dunno y when they perform, so many girl was screaming for them.. ok, one man meat is another man poison. haha!!! but I still wld comment bit.. lol~
mmmm... he look like a failure ruki.. lol!!
his hair-style 2day.. omg! I mean I dunno if he's following ruki but when the moment I saw his hair-style, I thought of ruki in RCE Concert!
IS LIKE WTF!! IS EXACTLY THE SAME EXCEPT FOR THE HAIR COLOR!!! -_-'
I totally xian diao.. den his scarf & outer thin jacket.. really remind me of RCE encore... omg~~ if he's realy gonna copy ruki style.. NO!!
I'LL BOYCOTT!! LOL~~~
but pls la.. dun. I think kunio shld just maintain his own style.
I admit I really shock on his height, his height is 1.90!!! omfg!!
SO TALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
hahahahahahahhaahhahahaha~~ tall like siaow~~ but I dun like...
den melon say he very good-looking, good-looking meh????

*thinking*

nt for me though... lmao!

tell u the truth, I'm a Lucify fan.

shldn't be paisae over it & must be proud!! lol!!! XD
ya, serious!! I support lucify ever since they perform 'Hei Se You Mo'
but I don't really go & chase but I 4got what song, then I start to support them all the way until now.. lol~~
I still support them.. ^^

even they look bit uncle-ish.. haha!!! but funny la~ lol!!
hehehehehhehehee......

anyway have fun 2day, nt bcos of the event.
but bocs of this 2 person: shinn & kesh!!
OMG!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, KESH!! ARGH!!!
U STICK TOO SHINN TOO MUCH LE!! U LEARN FRM HIM!!!!
BWAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! STOP MAKING ME LAUGH!!

serious, I was super shock when he imitate my laughter... 0.0
he nv imitate b4.. de 2day he imitate, I was like tio shock lo... lol!!
den melon kept laughing!! XD
I kept laughig 2day... lol~
gt my gazette book too!! woah!! RUKI!!! XD <333!!!

and pls... KESH-KIA, stop acting cute~~~ omg~~~~~
want candy floss, just get la... walao.... CAN SHY~~~~ haha!!!!
so funny~~ really v funny.. u shld watch his reaction, is so xiao didi la.. lol1!

OMG! I SOUND LIKE A JIEJIE OUT OF SUDDEN!! LOL~~~
and I kept thinking of yaoi stuff between shinn, kesh & rex. WTF AM I THINKING??!!!!!

die liao... too hard-core on yaoi le.. gotta refrain!!! XD
I CAN DO IT!!! XD



anyway, I wanna thanks kesh, shinn, melon & pearl! ^_^
I feel very happy 2day!

I was feeling super emo & pek-check over the past few day.. and finally 2day I can smile & laugh.. like all mine emo wasn't exist at all~~! ^^
really thanks.

but of cos, biggest thanks: candy.
if she nv invite, mayb I still feeling super miserable & emo..
dydy!! *hug*
but bocs is also a very simple thing, I dun wish to make my family worried. ^^

I'm fine! ^__^

I'll make 2day a very good memory. :)
A memory I shouldn't forget. ^_^

out of sudden, I think back all the past..
when the 1st tym I met fruits.. I didn't noe I wld make fren w/ them..

is like super irony!!! really... so weird & funny..
I still rmb when the very 1st tym I saw them... the very 1st tym which I nv even talk to them.. but just rmb them. nt in rmb but alrdy store in the brain.
means if out of sudden, I saw them on the street, I wld like 'orh! isn't that the perosn I saw at that shop?'

something like dis.. ^^
too much flashback out of sudden.. of all fruits, hmm...
the closet one to me now, last tym didn't really talk to me much.
and yet, they r the closest. lol~~
which the closest one to me, always talk & go out nw seem to nv contact le.
once awhile.. lol~!! but ok la~~

I won't say I know them verywell or like the best fren of them.. but just a fren. :)

candy, shinn, kesh, yumi, melon, verse, chiaki, kaoru, neo, monkeu...
I'm nt really very close with michi & longan & aki. :)
out of sudden, I think of something..... which make me feel omg!!!
so stupid & irony la!! lmao~~~~ ^_^

anyway hope I'll be happy forever! ^_^

whatever I feeling the past few day, I just take it as 'my unlucky time & day, nt fated with me though' :)
once, again. thanks. ^__^

i change my song to "People Error"
why? cause everybody make error.
You

Me

He

She

everybody




And until the day they die, they still make error.

and nw I realise I made an error and you did. (In my dream)
U r lucky.

dun worry, u didn't make an error.
No matter what you say or did, you were never wrong or make an error.

it would be me.

even if I'm right, is still an error


It shouldn't begin like this
all wrong. everything land on the wrong time.

I tried 2 forget.. but is not my error.
and yet, it make me feel & look like one.


I'm setting a goal to forget, I hope I'll.
but is just trying to hard.

I really has enough.

Im really very tired of *********

I noe I shld't make myself sound so pathetic.. sorry.
But I just write what I like & feel.
u dun wan read, den stfo. get it?
too cling is tired.

so I begin..... hope it will work.
I wld forget..... yes, i will.
I believed.
one day, maybe not now.

maybe 1 yr later, 5 yrs later, 10 yrs... it will vanish one day.
and I won't feel the sadness anymore, I feel happy and free.

anyway, I feel thanksful actually.
thanks to you, I realise actually life is full or ironice & error stuff.
thanks.

I wld nv make dis kind of error again. (maybe..................)

ただいま～～～
今日俺の気持ちょっと分が良くない。。すみませんでした。
流鬼ーくんを言うことができる。。だて俺の名前ははるきです。
ハ流鬼。春樹？　春木？はるき？ハルキ？
いいえ。。ハ流鬼です！　＾＾
よろしくおねがいします～～


ところで前方今日から俺が流鬼のコスプレイが捧げなさい 。
アニメのコスプレイもやらない～～～　だいきらいです。。。
どうしてお前ら絶対うそうですか？
なんかうんざりすること。。。本当～！！！！
お前らもちろんなにもしらない。。。でも俺はしてるよ！！！！！！
ひどい～～～　お前ら本当に大嫌い！～～
もう。。　それについて忘れなさい。


私の時間を無駄にしなさいない価値。。。。。




おお！！！
花ー様のブロクに更新がある！！＾＾
すげい嬉しい！！
～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
今年も残すところあと半月ですね
早いー
今日は休みなので大掃除を兼ねて部屋を片付けてました
すっごいキレイにっなて満足です



画像のとこちょっと前に更新しました。
とりあえずっていうかんじなのでまだ増える……かもしれないです(笑)




今漫画喫茶で拍手返させて頂いています。
目がしょぼしょぼ。
このペースで年内に終わるのか謎です(笑)
いつもどうも有難うございます
すごい励まされてます
～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
ねね。。見て！！！
や～～～～～～花ー様！！！！　＾＿＿＿＾

じゃ～～いま俺はSOYの時流鬼ー様がコスプレイに望むです！！＾＾
斑駁の時？Hmmmmm。。。。　しらいないな～～
でも最もおそらく時間のそれを作ることができれば斑駁の時やてます！！

オオオオオオ～～～～～～俺のスポージュニヤの写真本明日が送られる！！！

希望！！！！
今俺は現在忙しく俺のガゼットの戒ーチャンを探しつける

むずかし～～～　シンアポル中に戒ーさんが類似したいないです！！！！！！！ヤべ～

明日俺の休みの日！！！！　やった！！！！　よかたですね～～～～

俺は本当につかれたです～～～本当～～
すべてつかれた～～～　完全につかれた～～
とにかく私がたいと思う何を言いある。
明日が猫ーチャンみてるよ！！！
SPCAが行く！！！＾＿＿＿＿＾
私は写真の多くを取る！！！
まってます～～～～～～～

im back!! ^^
yeah! yeah!! yeah!!!
got alot of stuff to update....... actually nt really la.. lol~
my suju photobook!!!
wahahaha~~~ den my cosplay stuff~~ ^^
omg... ^^

here's my suju photobook!!! XD
IN KL ONE LEH!!! XD






den my hana-sama also gt update le!! ^^
weee~~~~~~


I'm currently concentrating on my ruki cosplay~~ ^^

my wishlist ruki cosplay all written on the right box!~` ^^
wanna noe what I'm doing, look there!! ^^

I know you don't mind.
but...... still feel very guilty.....
I try not to bother but still very sad cause I bluff u....
I hate to bluff people.. serious.
thats y I feel so sad & guilty now..... maybe I shld just told you the truth ealry then I won't feel so xian...... haiz~~~
sorry again.
Since you ask me not to do le, then I don't do already.

EOY~~~
bit bored compare to last year... maybe bcos I only went there 4 2 hr den go to wrk le.. hurhur~~
anyway also but fun cos with hichy.. lol!!
while eating BK, we talk alot of stuff and I REALISE DAT WE HAVE ALOT OF THING IN COMMMON!! OMG!!!!!! *o*
amazing!!!!

while walking around the place, didn't went it to the PAID area.. lol
saw JJP, Shiroro, Rayray frm sgcafe~~ haha~~


I dress up as ruki but well, if ppl ask me if I'm cosplaying I'll definetly tell them 'NO!'
i just dress up.. lol


now I already start rushing on my cosplay for matsuri/Stfet..
is must be a success!!! XD

I also finally gt my SUJU IN KL PHOTOBOOK!!!
OMFG~!!!! CAN U BELIEVED IT?!
Will take a pic of it asap.. :)
heheheheheheheheehehehehe~~~~~
and also from now onward, I decide ro dedicated myself solely to Ruki cosplay.
Means I'll only do Ruki cosplay from no onward. :)
next yr my anime cosplay will be the last. ^^
Hope is also a success since is the last one I'm doing. ^^


btw I just read up soemthing and I realise the true story behind gazette song 'Taion'~~~
I always believed there's something about this Taion.. but didn't noe that is based on a true story and is a very cruel, harsh sad story......
just like chizuru...
but even more worst...... when you read the story about this which you can simply find at en.wikipedia.
den you read taion lyric.. u will realise the pain of it...
ruki dedicated this song to her.... but why?
do you know that this case happen when ruki was only 6yr old?
and now his 25, he start to create this song to dedicated to her..
I can't describe how I feeling right now...
I believed that 4 guy must be livinh like hell right?
doing all those beast behavior stuff & w/o feeling remorseful.. go & die~~~
GAZETTE SHLD JUST DEDICATED 'GO TO HELL' TO THEM.
omg... sorry~~ agitated alrdy... T_T
ruki~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I find that... what we always see ont tv the 'Ruki' is totally vice-verse frm private 'ruki'
really... I'm not saying like I know him.

but the way you see he wrote his lyric.. you can feel.

he.... well, I dunno~~~


and.....
I feel so guilty & sad 2day........
I'm so sorry
I know I promise u but pls give me more time..
I'll really do... trust me!!!!!!!
by end of this mth.. really,
sorry keep on dragging~~~~
really very sorry~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
sorry~~~~~~
dun angry ah..........

俺が今年EOY流鬼ー様とコスプレイやりたいです！！
俺はコスプレイが成功であることを望む。。。おねがい～～～～～

これらの数日私は病気である。。本当にやべですね

くるしいです。。

そう！！　1つのより事！俺のブロクもうすぐにかわりました！！

それに先に見なさい！！

昨晩俺はガゼットクッキーを焼く！！！！！！超かわいい！！！！！見てください！！





かわいいでしょ？　はは。。。。　流鬼！　それ受け取られる！！！！

父は一緒に焼クキする。。すげい綺麗！！！　＾＾

わあああああああ～～～～～～～　＾＿＿＿＾
拍手！！！！！！　はは～～～

나는 돌아온다!!!! XD
당신은 모두 저를 놓쳤는가? haha~~~
추와!!! ^_^
나는 한국어에 오늘 쓰기 같이 왜 나가 지금 쓰고 있는지 이다 그래야 느낀다..
그런데, 나는 야후! 베발를-물고기 을 사용한다 , 번역하십시오 정확한 그것은 이렇게 이지 않는다. 아라소??????
와~~~~~~~~~~~~~
오늘모두1반2일본다.. ㅇ!!!!!!!!
이승기노무노무귀여와!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 아주 똑똑한 너무!!!!!!!
갸~~~~~~~ *___* 저를 실신하고!!~~~

그리고 또한 나는 하루종일을 실소하는 것을 계속한다!!!!!!
하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하하!!!!!
그리고 테리사-씨는 저에게 생과자를 준다모고다.....


마싰엉요!!!!! XD
나는 이미 잘 필요가 있다.... 나는 다시 쓸 것이다. ^^
잘 자!! ^_____________________________^

TOP IS SO GOOD-LOOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
REALLY!!!
I SAW THEM PERFORM 'SUNSET GLOW' ON MUSI BANK AND BEFORE THAT THEY HAVE AN INTERVIEW WITH BIGBANG, AND TOP IS LIKE SO DAMN BLOODY GOOD-LOOKING!!!!!!
WITH ALL HIS EYE-LINER & THE STUD MASK!! WOW!!!!!!!!!!! XD

nice~~ ^^
show u sum~~
manage to find it within 3min after saw the perf on music bank>. ^_^
I'm kinda pround of myself when come to find pic, mp3 & vid.. lol!!







ANYWAY CONGRAT!!
THEY WON FOR NO.1 CONTENDER!!!!
CHUKA EYO!!!

THE BEST OF ALL BEST!!
K.R.Y ALBUM!!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
den my fave.. toe sock!! XD
den I ownself pamper myself.. SUPER JUNIOR NII POSTER!!! XD


still gt somemore to come~~
wakakakakakakakakakakkakakkaa ^o^

den I finally change my look~~~ yeshie!! XD
DO I LOOK? YES, I DO!!!
I FEEL PRETTY CONFIDENT AND I LOVE MY LOOK!!!!! OMG!!!!

And..... ome more thing is..
Thanks, you made my day even happier. :)
Really, you made me feel even happy & better. ^_^
This is what I really hope for. ^^

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!! XD
Happy 17th birthday to me~~ lol!!!
I'm old le.. lol~~~~~
anyway got a very super happy presnt frm my ban-chan!! XD
WEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AND I ALSO GT MYSELF PRESNT FOR MYSELF.. PAMPER MYSELF~~ LOL
I BROUGHT SUJU NII Qualified Poster, SUJU KL PHOTOBOOK, SUJU IN TOKYO PHOTOBOOK, SUJU SUPER SHOW CD, SUPER SHOW FOLDER!!!! XD
WAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!!!

will post up pioc asap!! yea~~~~~~~
새잏추가함니다!!!!!!!
誕序日おめでと！！！！！！！！！！！
生日快乐！！！！！！！！

1 AND A HALF MORE HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMFG!!!!! XD
I'M SO DAMN BLOODY EXCITED!!~~~~ ^_____________^

TO THOSE WHO EASILY GAVE UP LIFE, THINK THAT YOU'RE USELESS JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T COMPLETE A SINGLE THING, YOU ALL SHOULD SEE THIS!!!!!
This link was gaven by dydy~~ of cos the word I post is not meant for her but to the whole world!!!





DON'T GIVE UP LIFE!!!
LIFE IS VERY PRECIOUS!!!
ALWAYS MUST THINK FOR OTHERS, NOT JUST YOURSELF!
WHEN YOU THINK YOU'RE THE WORST, THERE'S ALWAYS PEOPLE MORE WORST THEN YOU.
WHEN YOU THINK YOU'RE THE BEST, THERE'S ALWAYS PEOPLE MORE BETTER THEN YOU.
DON'T JUST GAVE UP LIFE LIKE NOTHING~~ YOUR PARENT HOLD YOU FOR 9MTH, IMAGINE IF YOU JUST GAVE UP YOUR LIFE, DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD WILL THEY BE. :)


So that's why till now, I always lean how to cherish life.
Every second, every minute. ^_^
Make use to the fullest, even those there's something you wanted to do but can't do, you can always try other way.. fulfillinf it in other way,
I believd you all know what & how if you search your heart. :)
Always be yourself, believed in yourself & love yourself.
You'll automatically feel contented with what you have. ^_^
trust me. ^^

ただいま！！！　イイえ！！！！
私はよいニュースを有する！！！
花ー様のブログを既に更新する！！！！
これは花ー様が書いたものである。。。。　こちらです～～

いつの間にやら12月ですね。
今日は天気が良くて温かいです。



心配してくださった方、なんだかすみません。
体調崩したりはしていないです。
いたって健康！です！
ちょっとごちゃごちゃあって沈んでたけど、なんか急にアホくさくなったので浮上しました(笑)




今日は秋葉原！
ギズモがメイド喫茶行ってみたいって言うからつきてきました。
今からオムライスに絵書いてもらいます(笑)


可愛いですね！！！！！！＞。＜
花ー様！！
花ー様はちょうど色を茶色にするために花ー様の毛を染める、あまりかこいいじゃないだな。。。
流鬼ー様ない良く似た。。ちょおとです。。。　すみません！！！　＞。＜
まま。。でも花ー様は今でも俺のアイドルです～～
かんばって！！！！　ずっと常に支えなさい！！！！！　＾＾

1つのより多くの事！！！
先は俺はTVのプログラムを、"1반2일" りスンギ－さん日本語を話してもいい見る！！
すごいい！！！！　本当にびくりした！！！！！！！！！　＊＿＿＊
＊拍手＊

とにかく2行くより多くの日～～～～～　興奮する！！！！！！！

よし～～～～
今晩俺のブロク全部日本語が書いてす。＾＾
ま。。。ちょうとむずかしだな。。。　でも、かんばれです。
だから俺は今日超嬉しい！！！！
もっと4日。。俺の誕序日来て！！！！！！
よっかた。。。。。。。。＾＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＾
そうそう。。。俺の髪変が変わり決めます。
矢部・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・俺の日本語本当に下手　Ｔ＿＿＿Ｔ
自分ぜんぜんしらない何が書いてます。　本当にやべ。。。。。
でも、今日の理由どうして俺は用日本語書いて。。　これだなーーーー＞







俺の様です！！！！ＸＤ
愛してる！！！！！！
やっぱりお前らは本当に流鬼様同じですね。　すげえ～～～













～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
ね。。。お前ら～～～
知てる？
絶対何も知らねんでしょ。。。
本当に悲しい。。。。
やっぱり。。。　もういよ。。。　
今の私、実は本当に楽しみです。：）
でも、あの日々が本当にありがとうです。
すげうれしい。　ありがとう。。。。。。。。。。。。

wahahahahha!!
is reaching!!!!! XD
so excited~~
well, excited in a way..
cos I've present frm my ban-chan & my cafe!! :)
but bit bored is bcos I gt a very strong feeling.. they'll forget.
yup, most of them or maybe all of them. but is ok.
haha~~

anyway I alrdy updated my bday wishlist!!! wee~~~
I WANT A HAIR VOUCHER BEFORE MY BDAY SO DAT I CAN DO MY HAIR!!!
A BIG SUN-GLASS JUST LIKE MY DEAR RUKI~~~~
Long black cardigan frm cotton-on.. always wanted to buy but nv.. hurhur
black boots! no heel.. just like ruki~~
Black t-shirt!
a pair of black jeans~~
those hair.. u noe gentleman/magician/tuxedo dat kind of hat!! yes!!
a very long black scarf!!

basically I want to make-over myself!! just like ruki!!
he's my dream make-over!! :)
I <3 suju but won't want to make-over like them.. hehehehehe~~
but If I wld to choose, I think I'll choose ryeowook
, kyuhyun
, donghae
& lee teuk

.
I like their dressing!! eunhyuk also!! :)